Tis Me Michelle

Time for a personal post. We’re at the end of June… I know most people say it about kids, but I truly relate to it personally… That saying ‘the days are long, but the years are short…’ I can’t believe we’re already halfway through the year. Yet I struggle to get through most days. How does that make sense? Let’s get into the pillars, shall we?

Health: I’ve generally done pretty well using my ClassPass. Mainly one aerial yoga class a week. I’ve done less Rumble, mostly cause of how ‘expensive’ the class is, but still try to book one every few weeks. I attempted a new pilates class, and I enjoyed it. Then I went back, and a creepy, drunk man walked into the class because they didn’t lock the doors once class started, so… I won’t be going back there.

I’m pretty sure I’m insulin-resistant and likely at risk of more complicated issues. I need to get some blood drawn, but I’ve been putting it off cause I don’t want to know and have it be real. I’ve done better with exercise, and kind of okay with food. However, I know it’s not nearly enough. This has been my priority. But I feel like the inconsistency I’m so good at doesn’t help specifically in this category.

Finances: No travel this quarter, lots of planning for the upcoming quarter though. An extreme amount was spent on food. I need to find the right balance of eating out for my blog, eating healthy, and not breaking the bank. It’s not the easiest balance. I did finally pay off my college loans, so that’s one win.

Relationships: No updates here. I am just trying to learn how to be there for others without draining myself… And trying to have a better relationship with myself. One where I actually show up for myself as much as I am willing to show up for others.

Career: I’ve been doing more on here with my food blogs. I’d love for that to take off. It hasn’t quite yet, so the day job is still necessary. Corporate is really a soul sucker. I appreciate the life it affords me, and yet I simply know it’s not the life I was meant for. I’m just not sure what it will take for me to take the leap to something else. Comfort really can be a crutch.

Life: That drawing class is over. I didn’t end up finishing it… I didn’t end up liking it. I’ve had a few meh classes at the school I was attending, so I’m taking a break from there and will be looking at other options. There are some one-off workshops I have my eyes on. I’ve been carving out more time to stay consistent with my blog and updating my socials. I’m back in a slump on the posting to socials part; I’m trying to pull myself out of it (again).

All of it seems silly when the world is burning around us… I’d like to figure out how my insignificant self can contribute rather than being so self-indulgent. It may sound dramatic, but I go through most of my days feeling rather meaningless. I want to put good in the world and feel like my time is being well spent. I so commend people who are doing it all and then some. I simply need to learn to stop thinking about it and just do…